It's been a while since I've posted. Things had been at 188.8 for a pretty long time-4 weeks I believe. I finally dropped the .8 and hit 188. I think it was because I was wearing much lighter pants that day, this week I'll wear my slacks or jeans again and see if there was a difference.
I did not work out at all last week. Boo me. I was drained. Completly drained, I still feel it too, I just am in a slugish mood. I need to get back on track. Today is that day, I will work out when I get home, even if it's just a little bit.
Wedding dress trying on is in 2 weeks. I'm about 10 lbs from where I wanted to be, I'd like to be in the 170's. I think for my wedding, I'd like to be around 150. I tend to wonder, when I really do reach my goal weight (135ish) if I'll have a ocd effect and want to lose more...I guess we'll see.
I was thinking in the car on the way to work today about what a struggle this it. It shouldn't be. Eat some many calories, burn so many calories. But sometimes life gets in the way. I was in 6th grade when I first started worrying about my weight...6th grade!!! I remember my family went to the beach and I wondered off to a book store and bought a book called "21 lbs in 21 days." I laugh now that I thought that was even healthy...but really...I was that worried about it. Chris' little sister Alyana is in 6th grade (I'm pretty sure) I could never imagine her having to worry about something like that (although she's so petite!) , in 6th grade you're supposed to worry about boys and make-up..not being over weight..just thought it was strange.
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Ashley, I always had the opposite problem growing up- I was super skinny, and couldnt gain weight at all, despite eating like a cow! It wasnt until about the time of my wedding that I started putting on weight... and well, lets just say, goodbye skinny, hello fat!
ReplyDeleteAnyways, the point of my story is, I worried about my weight growing up too, and how I looked. Even being toothpick skinny I worried that I had celulite, and felt horribly horribly self conscious in a bathing suit. Its so horrible that society has brain washed us women into thinking that if we arent the ideal weight, we are ugly. I think the only thing that should matter is that we make healthy choices...
but, even having said that, I can guarantee you that after I have this baby, i'll be obsessing over my weight too.
But why do they have to make all the really good foods so fattening???? :)
I hear yeah! It's so sad that people, myself included, are so worried about this image. Healthy is all that matters.
ReplyDeleteI'm telling you, it's those little frozen pizza's they get me everytime, and french fries mmmm=)