Feb 27, 2009 Weigh in!

Well after a week of not eating very healthy, but working out every night, I lost .8- not a lot, but as Chris reminded me, at least it's a loss and not a gain. I feel like some of it is water retention, so if I have a large loss that week, I'll know as soon as I start working out hard, it takes a while for my body to show it.

But so far so good. Things are looking up. Well, really down.

1.4 is all I want!

Weigh in is Thursday, today is Monday. If I loose 1.4 lbs this week it'll out me at a 5 lbs loss. I get a star sticker at the meeting then too. Seems odd that adults get so excited of stickers, but let me tell you, it's tangable. I may not be able to see that 5 lbs loss in my body, but I sure as heck will see it on my book mark with that sticker!

WW found research saying that people react well to star stickers.....pathetic eh? Good thing I am the stereo typical person who wants one!!!

I didn't eat super well this weekend. I tracked all my food which is good. But I did manage to make it to the gym Friday night and Saturday. Sunday I was so sleep deprived from taking care of Lilly I didn't go Sunday. Today I am starting to get chris' cold. Boo. I am still going to make it to the gym tonight. I started my circut training on sat and my arms are still sore!

I am feel healthier which is good. I keep telling myself this is the best thing I can do for myself. I will not be a fat bride or wife. I don't want to resent my wedding pictures and I know I would if I had to take them at this weight! Chris and I both deserve me in the healthiest form that I can be.

I suppose that's enough rambling for now. Time to get working.

Meow.

2/19/09 Weigh in Day

Well-it proved to be a good week. Weighed in today and I weighed 193.4 that's a loss of -3.6!

At some point I'm going to make a graph of some sort to post on here. Maybe with some pictures too. I probably won't see a difference in my body until 25lbs or so. That seems REALLY far away.

I started to clean out my room last night, I went through my closet and saw all of my "skinny" clothes that I never got rid of. The nice thing is, it seems reasonable to keep most of them now! The real small stuff I got rid of, I don't want to be that thin again, but I kept most. I won't even have to go shopping as I lose weight, but we all know I will anyway!!

Today was a good day.

I've realized I am very aware of everything I eat. I am probably obsessive about it. Whether or not I make healthy choices is different. I know when I eat a piece of pizza I have a good idea of the nutritional info, and exactly how it will effect me. Generally I don't say no though =).

Today Chris brought home pizza for lunch. I said No. I didn't even take a nibble. For all who know me, it's a dang miracle!!!!!!

I then was going to make some pasta roni (mmmm overly processed food goodness!) and some grilled chicken, still within my point range for the day, but a meal high in points b/c of the pasta roni. I again said no.

Instead I made some chicken, put together a salad and ate some hummus and snap peas. A MUCH healthier meal and I felt very good about it!

I then went to the gym. I hoped on the elliptical for 30 minutes, got off and lifted weights, still felt good so I hoped back on the elliptical for round two!!

I thought round two was a good idea until I got on. I immeditaly wanted off, but in fear of people noticing I just got on (which they wouldn't) I stayed on. And I felt good. I might not be able to move tomorrow though...oh boy.


I made some healthy chicken pot pie tonight and I'll take left overs all week. This is going to be a good week. Hopefully =)

Here it is!

Really I just need a place to vent about it. I'm NOT looking for pity, encouragement yes-pity no. It's been that elephant in the room since as long as I can remember.

I guess i'm not going to be afraid of posting-dare I say it- my weight. DUN DUN DUN. The truth is, a little honesty could do me some good. I mean it's not like I'm a stick figure and I weigh a lot ha!

My all time high *gulp* 209.
Jack and Patty's wedding 199.

some down and up in between now last Thursday the 12th we started doing Weight Watchers at work, as a group meeting and I weighed in at 197 fully clothed. The weights posted above were in the buff. Today I stepped on the scale in the buff at 189.5. I'm going somewhere with this and it's looking like a good place.

I will probably post all the weights as fully clothed though. In the buff just isn't going to cut it. Boo

So there it is. The cold hard truth. I've got a wedding, and Chris and I both deserve me in the healthist shape possible.

We'll see. Ha.