it's been a while!

well it has been a while! today's weigh in went successfully, I was down 1.6 which put me at 182.4. only .4 more until i've lost 15 with WW and only 4.4 until I've lost my 10% with WW. i've lost 27.6 total counting my weightloss prior to ww! i'm feeling pretty good!!!!


I would like to keep running and commit to 4 days a week. although I haven't logged it, i've been running at great paces, one day it was under 12 per mile! I want to really focus on my food choices this week and running!

cheers to another week!

5/14/09

Well I lost .6! I weighed in at 185.4! In the buff it was 181! I am getting closer and closer! I def like to see things go down and not up!!!

I ran Thursday
Distance: 3.1 Miles
Time: 40:51
Per Mile: 13:06
High HR: 201
Avg HR: 189


I also ran Friday:......*my ipod died .5 miles in agh that was a rough run*
Distance: 3.1 Miles
Time: 39:44
Per Mile: 12.72(not seconds)
High HR: 200
Avg HR: 186

Today is Saturday, I'll take it easy today, we went fishing then up to Portland for a girls night while Chris and his friends go see a movie at the IMAX. Kellie is BBQing so I am taking some chicken breasts and corn, and I think I'll try to stay away from all the goodies!

5/7/09

186! Woot! It's a possibility it came from wearing a thinner shirt, but in reality after a rough 2 weeks I am thrilled with my .4 loss. Better than a gain! Finally today, the 10th, I ran again! It felt good. I did 3.1 on a route I hadn't ran before, I finished in 41:36, my slowest pace yet, but I did take 2 weeks off, so not bad, works out to be a 13:34 mile, always room for improvement, my race is in about a month.

I figured I should start posting my stats of my runs too, thanks to my handy-dandy heart rate monitor!

Pace: 41:36
Mile: 13:36
Distance: 3.1 miles
High Heart Rate: 202-yikes I'd like to see this drop A LOT
Average Heart Rate: 185-this too.

Girls on the Run!

It's official! I have registered for my first 5k race (3.1 miles) since I was 17!! Yikes. I don't know if I am ready for this...but it's June 6th! So I have some time, I ordered a shirt too, which I am super excited about!


http://www.active.com/page/Event_Details.htm?event_id=1654745&assetid=B26CF5B0-07A8-4A61-8AC7-4344DF60AC72&

Here is a website from the Corvallis sector which I'll be running in! The Daisy Dash
http://kidspirit.oregonstate.edu/about/index.html

I'm....Proud.

Without a doubt I want to be a runner. I see people running while I'm driving every single day, and I always think, I want to be that. I used to be, I want to be now.

Chris and I were driving home from the coast yesterday and were talking about running, I wanted to go from his house, down to Grand Prarie, I was scolded. There is no shoulder and it's dangerous enough to be on the back roads around his house, b/c all the cool kids drive like crazy. He told me Spicer would be better to run on, it's got a shoulder and then some gravel. I finally agreed with a bitter tone. Not sure why, I can't make it far enough for it to even matter!

So we took Spicer to his house to see how far, one way was a mile and a half. I decided that'd be a good goal, maybe this summer I'll make it down and back for a nice 3 miles.

Yesterday we ate junk, junk, and more junk. I felt crummy, and I decided I was going to run, I haven't worked out for about 2.5 weeks and was thinking this would be bad. So I took off. I was excited. I made it all 3 miles without stopping!!!!!!!!!

That's a huge accomplishment for me, I haven't ran three miles nonstop since high school. I haven't a mile off of the treadmill. Whoo hoo!!

I feel good, I know I need to be easy on my knees, and careful on the road. I was glad to see all the drivers gave me PLENTY of room.

So tonight I may try again, my legs are sore, but I might just go to the gym, haven't decided. I am very excited though!!!

4/16/09-186.2!

What a great week! I lost 2.6 and it put me at 186.2! It's been a while since these numbers have been around!

I finally feel like I am far enough under 200 I don't have to worry about waking up after a big dinner and seeing those numbers!! I know it's crazy!

So since 2/12 I have lost 11.6 and since this summer it's almost 25 lbs! I know it's not much when you look at the time span, but most of it has been coming off recently which rocks my world.

I have lost 5% of my body weight (9 lbs) and my next goal is my 10% (19 lbs).

We'll see what happens this week!

4/9/09

It's been a while since I've posted. Things had been at 188.8 for a pretty long time-4 weeks I believe. I finally dropped the .8 and hit 188. I think it was because I was wearing much lighter pants that day, this week I'll wear my slacks or jeans again and see if there was a difference.

I did not work out at all last week. Boo me. I was drained. Completly drained, I still feel it too, I just am in a slugish mood. I need to get back on track. Today is that day, I will work out when I get home, even if it's just a little bit.

Wedding dress trying on is in 2 weeks. I'm about 10 lbs from where I wanted to be, I'd like to be in the 170's. I think for my wedding, I'd like to be around 150. I tend to wonder, when I really do reach my goal weight (135ish) if I'll have a ocd effect and want to lose more...I guess we'll see.

I was thinking in the car on the way to work today about what a struggle this it. It shouldn't be. Eat some many calories, burn so many calories. But sometimes life gets in the way. I was in 6th grade when I first started worrying about my weight...6th grade!!! I remember my family went to the beach and I wondered off to a book store and bought a book called "21 lbs in 21 days." I laugh now that I thought that was even healthy...but really...I was that worried about it. Chris' little sister Alyana is in 6th grade (I'm pretty sure) I could never imagine her having to worry about something like that (although she's so petite!) , in 6th grade you're supposed to worry about boys and make-up..not being over weight..just thought it was strange.

No loss. No gain.

188.8...again. Slow and steady wins the race? I haven't been working out as much, so this is proof that I need too, also, it is good to know that I can maintain with the foods I've been eating....

Running and my love/hate relationship with the Treadmill

I hate treadmills. I am open about. I think they're terribly boring and bad for your knees. I love running, but I hate running on a treadmill. It's ridiculous. I feel like a mouse on a wheel in a cage...


I've had a change of heart. I no longer hate the treadmill, but I like it. Not love...yet. It hasn't been bad on my knees, because part of me is thinking that I use my bad knee as a crutch, as an excuse.

I started running the C25K program outside a while back. I stopped doing it regularly, but still sometimes. It builds you up to running a 5k race. And for the record, it's much more of a workout to run outside than on a treadmill...it's been proven, but either way you're still working out!

In the past week or two, I've been doing my workout on the elliptical, for 30-60 minutes. If I am not at my target of calories burned by that I've hopped on the treadmill. It started with just doing an extra 10 minutes, to last night where I did 50 minutes. I sweat A LOT more while running than doing the elliptical, but I think I enjoy the elliptical more.

For the first time in almost 4 years I was able to run longer than 5 minutes at a time. In fact- I ran two, 20 minute sections....I went from 5 minutes to 20 minutes in one night.

What was my motivation? I have realized when I am losing weight and I'm doing well, I get off track easily, I let things slide...why-I'm not sure. I didn't do well this past weekend with my food choices, and this weekend will be equally as hard. I have dress shopping in a month, and a wedding in seven months. Things HAVE to change. Things WILL change.

I WILL NOT BE A FAT BRIDE. I WILL NOT BE A FAT WIFE. It ends now.

Yikes!

Last night I was going through a bunch of pictures I had forgotten about. A lot of those were my Hawaii pictures. I went with Kristi and her family, I was sick for half the trip, but still it was a blast. You can't be sick in any better place than Hawaii, right?

It's hard for me to say how much I weighed when I was there, but it was somewhere around 200-205. YIKES! No one wants to be a fat kid in Hawaii. Since I was sick when I got home, I weighed about 195 in the buff. This is the only picture that has truly made me cringe in a long time. When I look in the mirror I don't see a fat person, I see a very thin 120 lbs high school girl still....it's kind of a shock I suppose. When I look at pictures I don't see a fat kid, I see a chubby face, yeah yeah, but I usually tend to hide my body. That's a little hard to do in Hawaii.

I think this picture is a huge motivator for me. I don't want to continue to look like this EVER again.

And on that note, I suppose I'm off to the gym, but for the record I'd rather snuggle and take a nap with Lilly!

3/19/09

Woot! I've been sick this week and still managed to lose another 2.2! That makes it 8.2 total, and puts me at 188.8! I'm pretty excited, I know the weight loss will slow down soon, and probably be some gains, now I just have to remember not to over eat when that happens.

Ciao!

I think I can do this...

I've seem to have picked up a little head cold...I've had it for a few days. Actually it seemed to be the day after I proudly spoke at work, "I really haven't had a bad cold this season, luckily." Stupid me and my big mouth haha.

Well today was a bad morning, I slept through church, woke up at 11, had a TERRIBLE sore throat, but Chris went and got me a bagel...so that was good! I managed to put on my gym clothes and go tough it out. Friday I only worked out for about 40 minutes and Saturday I took as my day off, so today I wanted a good, long, workout.

I was there, no turning back. Since I can hardly breath I took it kind of easy heart rate wise. I did an hour on the elliptical, burned about 450 calories. I like to try and burn at least 500 so I hopped on the treadmill. Friday I had ran on the treadmill for the first time in years since it's hard on the knees, but they felt good so I carried it on today. I did 3 minutes runinng 2 minutes walking. I walked the first and last five minutes in my half hour on the treadmill and it felt good!
I burned almost 800 calories today and I'm stoked!

I never knew I could push my body like this, especially when I'm sick...really! I took some pictures after my shower, I am starting to tell a little in my face of the weight loss. I generally compare myself to what I was at 209 not the starting of weight watchers, so there is a bit of a difference, but not too much.



As Chris said (with all sincerity) "baby, you only have two chins instead of three!"-I never had three, two yes, three no. I am starting to get rid of that second one now!!!

Albany's Finest.

I am by no means, a gym regular. I go at least 4 days a week for the past 4-5 weeks. Maybe if I've been going 6 days a week for 6 months I'd be one, but I'm not there yet. One day.

With that said, I do go enough to see people there who attend regular sessions. I don't like to think I have obsessive tendencies with watching other people, but when you're on the elliptical for an hour and your songs are getting old on your ipod, you're to blind to see the TV, and you'd do anything for a cheeseburger-people watching is a good option.

You would imagine I'd spend all of my time focusing on the guys at the gym. Well...maybe if there were guys who were:

1. Not 12
2. Showered this week
3. Not native to Albany ( no offense).

The list of people who I focus on I find interesting, and you might to.

First, there is the pregnant lady. She's there almost every day I am, so she's probably there the days I am not too. She's about my height and VERY, VERY, VERY thin-especially for being pregnant. She's the true reason I ever made it to running an hour on the elliptical. I came in one night and she had already been on an elliptical, when my half hour was up...she was still running. I can't be shown up by a pregnant woman. Stupid. I find I have anger towards this woman..GO HOME AND EAT SOME ICE CREAM STOP WORKING OUT. Ugh. I find I have this same anger towards my pregnant sister=)

Second. There is an older guy...maybe mid 60's. He had a problem with his leg and had one crutch. I've seen him about 5 times. He does one leg squats. OH MY GOSH. I can't even do a squat hardly and he's doing them on one leg? Thank you and goodnight.

Third. There are simple rules at our gym. If your kids are under 12 they need to be supervised. Most times there are little kids doing their homework at the table. However, this rule should read:

Kids under 12 must be supervised UNLESS they are boys ages 13-16. They think it's really fun to turn the treadmills up as fast as they go and see how long they can stay on...ANNOYING.

Third. This is a true story.

I was about 10 minutes into my hour on the ellipicatal and in comes one of Albany's finest. She was cute, had a camo hat on, BIG gold hopop earrings. Nails long enough to creep anyone out and wasn't wearing much of anything else....and she was cute, just not that cute.

So She had a bag and I figured she'd change and start a workout. WRONG. She hopped on the tredmill just like that...hat, hoops and all....WHAT? And she ran, and ran, and ran. And 30 minutes later one of her earrings went flying off at which point she decided to call it quits.

Really....who goes out looking like that...who goes to the GYM like that?

And last but not least my new favorite. A couple came in last night and they were wearing matching track suits....oh Albany.

3/12/2009

Today's weigh in was great! I lost 2.2 and am now a even 191. At first when I stepped on it said 190.7, but it settled at 191. Oh well maybe next week!!

It's been a good week food wise...sort of. I PIGGED out at Chevy's with my sisters. I've never ever cleared my plate at a restaurant...and I did. *gasp* Not to mention like 3 baskets of chips. Sh....=)

I've really been putting effort in at the gym. It's hard for me to stay committed. Not to mention I need new shoes bad, I have a sharp pain in my heel whenever I walk. I hear it can be fixed with massaging it, physical therapy, and new shoes. I'll skip the PT though!

*gasp* A gain!!!

I totally forgot to post this last week. Whoops.

Yeah, it's true. I gained. It was only .6, the leader said it's likely that I was wearing jeans instesad of slacks. But as she said that I thought, what's it matter, it all comes out in the wash. It's not like I'll never wear jeans again b/c I gained .6.

Now if my jeans weighed about 20lbs, that'd be a different story =).

I haven't been super cautious of my food until yesterday. Friday I ate Ping's with Chris' family, Thursday I think we had pizza, Saturday I had Chevy's....ouch, but for the most part I watched my portions...not at Chevy's though. I was still pretty full most of Sunday!!

I got on the scale this morning, in the buff, and it said 188.4. Wow. 189.2 had been my road block, I haven't been able to get passed it in over a year! I mentally just shut down like, "I'm in the 180's-barely, but I can relax now" and it was just a vicious cycle.

So even though I weigh in fully clothed on Thursdays, I think, I hope, there will be a little loss. I am aiming for 190.

My workouts rocks. I am now able to control my heart rate. When I first started going, I was sitting anywhere between 185-200 which is VERY HIGH. I checked with my doc, and he said as long as I felt okay, it's probably due just to being out of shape.

Now When I work out, same workout, same intensity, it's sitting between 160-170. Things are looking better!!!

Feb 27, 2009 Weigh in!

Well after a week of not eating very healthy, but working out every night, I lost .8- not a lot, but as Chris reminded me, at least it's a loss and not a gain. I feel like some of it is water retention, so if I have a large loss that week, I'll know as soon as I start working out hard, it takes a while for my body to show it.

But so far so good. Things are looking up. Well, really down.

1.4 is all I want!

Weigh in is Thursday, today is Monday. If I loose 1.4 lbs this week it'll out me at a 5 lbs loss. I get a star sticker at the meeting then too. Seems odd that adults get so excited of stickers, but let me tell you, it's tangable. I may not be able to see that 5 lbs loss in my body, but I sure as heck will see it on my book mark with that sticker!

WW found research saying that people react well to star stickers.....pathetic eh? Good thing I am the stereo typical person who wants one!!!

I didn't eat super well this weekend. I tracked all my food which is good. But I did manage to make it to the gym Friday night and Saturday. Sunday I was so sleep deprived from taking care of Lilly I didn't go Sunday. Today I am starting to get chris' cold. Boo. I am still going to make it to the gym tonight. I started my circut training on sat and my arms are still sore!

I am feel healthier which is good. I keep telling myself this is the best thing I can do for myself. I will not be a fat bride or wife. I don't want to resent my wedding pictures and I know I would if I had to take them at this weight! Chris and I both deserve me in the healthiest form that I can be.

I suppose that's enough rambling for now. Time to get working.

Meow.

2/19/09 Weigh in Day

Well-it proved to be a good week. Weighed in today and I weighed 193.4 that's a loss of -3.6!

At some point I'm going to make a graph of some sort to post on here. Maybe with some pictures too. I probably won't see a difference in my body until 25lbs or so. That seems REALLY far away.

I started to clean out my room last night, I went through my closet and saw all of my "skinny" clothes that I never got rid of. The nice thing is, it seems reasonable to keep most of them now! The real small stuff I got rid of, I don't want to be that thin again, but I kept most. I won't even have to go shopping as I lose weight, but we all know I will anyway!!

Today was a good day.

I've realized I am very aware of everything I eat. I am probably obsessive about it. Whether or not I make healthy choices is different. I know when I eat a piece of pizza I have a good idea of the nutritional info, and exactly how it will effect me. Generally I don't say no though =).

Today Chris brought home pizza for lunch. I said No. I didn't even take a nibble. For all who know me, it's a dang miracle!!!!!!

I then was going to make some pasta roni (mmmm overly processed food goodness!) and some grilled chicken, still within my point range for the day, but a meal high in points b/c of the pasta roni. I again said no.

Instead I made some chicken, put together a salad and ate some hummus and snap peas. A MUCH healthier meal and I felt very good about it!

I then went to the gym. I hoped on the elliptical for 30 minutes, got off and lifted weights, still felt good so I hoped back on the elliptical for round two!!

I thought round two was a good idea until I got on. I immeditaly wanted off, but in fear of people noticing I just got on (which they wouldn't) I stayed on. And I felt good. I might not be able to move tomorrow though...oh boy.


I made some healthy chicken pot pie tonight and I'll take left overs all week. This is going to be a good week. Hopefully =)

Here it is!

Really I just need a place to vent about it. I'm NOT looking for pity, encouragement yes-pity no. It's been that elephant in the room since as long as I can remember.

I guess i'm not going to be afraid of posting-dare I say it- my weight. DUN DUN DUN. The truth is, a little honesty could do me some good. I mean it's not like I'm a stick figure and I weigh a lot ha!

My all time high *gulp* 209.
Jack and Patty's wedding 199.

some down and up in between now last Thursday the 12th we started doing Weight Watchers at work, as a group meeting and I weighed in at 197 fully clothed. The weights posted above were in the buff. Today I stepped on the scale in the buff at 189.5. I'm going somewhere with this and it's looking like a good place.

I will probably post all the weights as fully clothed though. In the buff just isn't going to cut it. Boo

So there it is. The cold hard truth. I've got a wedding, and Chris and I both deserve me in the healthist shape possible.

We'll see. Ha.